the prom? (d)

a party of strangers
it's my 30-year reunion
I know everyone, but they've all changed and I'm still the strange one with the band-aid
for some reason I am not able to talk to my friends, but I can talk to the preps
everyone is in evening dress, like the prom
I wear jeans, like the prom
I have cameras
they send me away because I wear jeans
this time I leave a camera behind so they can have pictures in the yearbook

bliss (p)

I lived once, then I died
or perhaps that's not quite true
and I've never lived.
Never having been loved
never loving in return
only lust
only lust
had ever driven
no, never driven
me to arms
in which I could find
only trust
only trust.
There are,
out there,
arms that would trust me
to fall back into
and hold me
in bliss.

water dreams (d)

Two dreams, both about water.

1. There are a lot of people, all of whom I know peripherally. We're at some party/gathering in a time-share/mansion so we all go off to claim a bedroom. I find the master suite and am pleased so I claim it. I go into what I believe to be the bathroom. The room is bigger than the rest of the suite with glass block floors and niches. The walls and ceiling are made of coral the windows are also glass block.
There is a barrier of plastic strips, like you would see in a freezer or cooler. I step through and music comes on, the water on the floor is up past my knees and is warm. Then water starts spraying out of the walls and ceiling. Fountains start randomly all over the floor. There is a large niche with a spa and a waterfall.
I run out and start calling the girls to come and see what I found. They all gather at the door and I tell them to be ready.
The guys start gathering as well, I tell them that they can't go in yet. The girls all go in through the barrier and we play in the water for a while as the guys look in. Then I strip and someone who wasn't in the original party comes in, picks me up and carries me out. Everyone else disappears.
We're back in the shower room, sitting on the steps to the spa in the spray of the waterfall.
Dream ends, I wake up.

2. Swimming in a lake surrounded by desert. Alone but not sad. This is my place and I don't feel a need to share it.
The sun is high and warms me when I leave the lake to sit on a rock.
Dream ends.

it hurts (dp)

feeling lost
no guidance
wandering with no signposts
life with no music
inspiration
gone
listless
no
love

the abstract life (p)

Weaving in and out
light paints the face
of a promise of faith,
unwavering.
In sight of temptation
shadows obscure
dappling vision,
but holding sure
the faith wavers not.
Tripping in and out
of this life and that
being now here, now there
and then nowhere
the promise of promise holds
one to another.

Silence (dp)

Silence speaks volumes
when you know why.
Silence is deafening
and can cause pain.
Silence can kill
........

Nothing (p)

Nothing right, nothing wrong.
Nothing left, nothing gone.
Nothing ahead, nothing behind.
When you're not here
all that there is, is nothing.

I saw a word (d)

I dreamed that I received a package in the mail.
I could clearly read my name and address.
There was no return address but on the back there was a word. I have no idea who rusmoinger is but that's the word that was on the back of the FedEx envelope. Oh yeah, I did see the FedEx too.